Soooooo tired....

It's Saturday and 8:20 in the morning and I am SO TIRED. I'm at the Westin today taking pictures and my first appointment hasn't shown up yet. That really pisses me off. It's my Friday at the Westin, but I don't really have a day off. I have a photo shoot tomorrow at Sunset and TWO photo shoots on Monday, including a wedding.

Not that I'm complaining or anything, I'm just freakin tired and VERY swollen and bloated at the moment. Sorry if that's too much info... hahaha

It really is a beautiful day today, but I just want to be in bed right now and get caught up on sleep. I think I'm going to sleep half the day away tomorrow!

So my replacement for the Westin is coming August 9th and will start right around August 15th. So a few days of training are in order and I should be done just before our trip to Honolulu. Which is good because August is a busy photography month for me. I have quite a few weddings and portrait sessions scheduled.

I was really bummed last night because I fell asleep before Peter got home. =( So I didn't get to hang out with him at all yesterday. And only for an hour the day before. I know we just went to Lanai, but I miss him already.

OK, I'm a whiner today. Total whiner. Sorry.

Yay Hotwire.com!

So we're going to Honolulu Aug 19th for our appointment, and of course it's busy busy tourist season so everything's really expensive. I couldn't even find a car for less than $35 a day.

So on a whim I checked hotwire.com and got a car from Avis for $19.95!! Cool dude.

Lanai Pics!

YAHOO! We have our appointment!

Peter and I got back from our weekend getaway to Lanai on Wednesday. I'm a bum and haven't gotten the pictures off the digital camera yet. It was so much fun - so relaxing - but went by WAY to fast.

Anyway, on Thursday Faye from Dr. Vu's office called to make our initial appointment! So we're going to Oahu on August 19th and are staying the weekend to celebrate my birthday. Peter has never been to Pearl Harbor so we're going to do that too.

So I'd imagine that after the consultation - if I am a good candidate for IVF - that the transfer will be in September or October. I also spoke with Dr. Rodgers at Kaiser and she feels that we have exhausted all our options for standard medications and this is the best route for us to take.

I only have a couple weeks left of working at the Reflections desk at the Westin. I've enjoyed taking pictures at the hotel, but am thoroughly exhausted from it. So once that's done, I think life will get a bit easier and I'll get to see Peter again and go back to my normal sleep pattern. =) .... ohhhh.... I miss sleep.

Have a beautiful day!!!

Why does it have to be so hard?

I was in such a great mood this morning. I was so expecting the doc to say my follicles grew to the 2cm and that everything was good.

The left follicle actually died, while the right follicle shrunk from 1.5 to 1.25cm - not a healthy follicle. =( So she explained that a pregnancy is not likely this month (I'll still hold on to my glimmer of hope though).

I'm confused as to what to do next - I still haven't heard from Oahu, so I'm assuming the best thing to do is to continue the Gonal-F/Clomid combination, as at least it created a follicle (which I wasn't getting before).

Doc also said I need to reduce the stress factor and stop working for a bit. That sounds GREAT because I really miss Peter. It almost feels like I have to make an appointment to see him. I have about a month left taking pictures at the Westin which is good because I think that's about all I can take. The job is technically easy, but very exhausting for me.

I'm in a bad mood right now. It's crazy that all these months are whirling by. It's like I'm stuck in a fog just waiting for each day to pass until the next cycle hoping that will be 'the one'. Does that make sense or am I just a total dork?

Anyways, I'm gonna try to get a little nap in before I go back to the Westin in a couple hours.

It was ALL worth it

Today was CRAZY!!! I had a doctor appointment scheduled for 10:45am, but there was a huge fire on the Pali (the cliffs/hwy to Kahului) and the road was closed. But I HAD to go to the doctor because it was very important for the doc to look at my ovaries on cycle day 11.

Anyways, I waited in traffic for two and a half hours before I finally made it through and the doctor saw me. It looks like I'm responding to the Clomid/Gonal F combination!

I have TWO FOLLICLES growing! The doctor would like the follicles to be about 2 cm, but right now they are about 1.2 and 1.5. So I have to go back on Thursday for another ultrasound and if they're big enough, I get another shot that's supposed to force ovulate. So there's a chance that this may work and we won't have to go do the IVF. Hopefully we'll get one or two healthy eggs!! YEEYAH!

Ok, but that's not where all the craziness ends. I had to GO BACK to the West side for a wedding at Napili Point so I waited in traffic for another two and a half hours - but I made it to the wedding and the couple was adorable and it was all good.

So anyway, it was ALL WORTH IT. I have follicles growing and I'm suuuuper positive. =)

Naked Juice

Have you heard of it? Peter and I tried it in Las Vegas last year. It's this cool Green juice that has a bunch of fruits and vegetables in it. Anyway, I bought a case from Down to Earth ($88 bucks for a case!) and I LOVE THE STUFF. How did I ever live without it?

Done with Clomid - On to Gonal F!

OK - so I finished my four days of Clomid at 150mg (the max dose) and had my first injection of Gonal F yesterday. I get another one today. The nurse did it yesterday and Peter gets the honor of shooting my drugs today! haha

The Gonal F is supposed to stimulate my ovaries into creating follicles and eggs. I'll go in for an ultrasound on Tuesday to check to see if I'm responding to the Gonal F and doctor should be able to tell if I'll ovulate.

In the meantime, I am EXHAUSTED. I'm working too much and Peter and I have opposite schedules. I miss him so much. I hate going to bed by myself every single night.

We're going to Lanai in one week for four nights. I can't wait. I need a break, big time!

Feeling Blah

It's my day off today and I feel SO LAZY! I cleaned the bathroom today - much needed - so that's out of the way. I just feel so damn TIRED!

Anyways, was playing around with the doggies today and got a couple great shots!


Enjoy!